Former “Bachelor” Britt Nilsson opened up about her struggles with addiction and bulimia.
“My makeup is basically that I just want it all, all the time. That’s what makes me a really joyful person. I really like experiencing life, I really, truly enjoy life so much but I also don’t know when to stop,” Nilsson said in a July 12 video on YouTube that is making the rounds now.
She explained that her struggles with addiction were rooted in shame.
“All addictions are pretty related to shame and pain avoidance, in my experience. The years after college were really dark years. I was binging all day, throwing up. I was hiding it because I was so ashamed. I was just mortified with myself. I would spend my days eating food in secret, throwing up in garbage bags in my car, throwing up in dumpsters, throwing up behind bushes, in the shower.”
Her experience on the long running reality show in 2015 when she vied for Chris Soules’ heart caused her destructive behavior to re-emerge.
“For me, having tons of food everywhere it just became too much. I had pain and anxiety, I felt insecure, I didn’t feel pretty enough, I didn’t know what was going on, I missed my family,” said Nilsson. “I was totally terrified that it was going to be caught on a mic and that millions of people were going to know that I just couldn’t control myself,” she said. “It was really, really hard for me, and it just kept going…